Thursday 13 February 2014

Love for Us { At This Moment in Time }


Our bed, at 6.30am most mornings. A metaphor for "our love" right now. The two smallest members of the family, taking up more room, space and doona than the two of us. My husband and I, pushed to the edge, with arms and legs desperately trying to stay in there, till as close to 7am as we can manage.

This move to the Pilbara seven months ago, has brought with it, major changes to our life, our routines, our relationship. And while some things have improved, other things have not. We see each other every day now. But we actually have less of a chance to spend time together. As a couple and as a family. I definitely wouldn't put "us" in the improved bracket right now. Young children, this five day work week (my husband previously worked fly in fly out of Perth), and just life in general. Shit just gets busy.

The feelings are still there, but time just isn't. We give our best to our daughters. Our patience, time, energy and conversation. Not to mention our warmest cuddles and kisses. And when they're asleep and tucked in bed for the night, we slump on the couch with a cup of herbal tea. Mostly in silence. Glad to have our feet up. To be reading and doing things that interest us. And doing them uninterrupted for the first time in the day. And sadly, with the TV usually being the only shared focal point between the two of us.

Young children and life. Makes for busy days. For lots of unromantic evenings. And no chance of lazy mornings spent lounging in bed. It's not a recipe for long conversations, candle lit dinners, sexy lingerie, or much effort at all really. Not in this house anyway.

I wish things were different. I wish I was different. But the truth is, I'm just not. I make an effort during the day, but I am in my pyjamas by 7pm most nights. And gladly so. Right now, in this moment, all our efforts go into parenting, and not enough effort goes into us as a couple. I know that that isn't a good thing, and maybe I'm admitting our faults more than I actually should be on here!

But, the reality of course. That this period of our lives, where so much of our energy is spent on the girls, is a small one. So in no way am I moaning. We are lucky to have the family that we do.

I don't agree with the commercialism of Valentine's Day. But I do with the sentiment. To me, Valentine's Day is a reminder. A day to remind your friends and family, that you love and care for them. That you value them. Despite not showing it, quite as much as you should.

So what will you find us doing tonight. Opting out of our usual early family tea time. A late dinner to ourselves at home once the girls are in bed. Where all the positive reasons for eating your broccoli won't be discussed (it gives you big muscles, did you know that?). A meal that will be eaten while the food is still hot. And one which won't require the remnants to be swept off the floor afterwards. Oh and a good bottle of red. That's the plan anyway.

Happy Valentines day to you. I hope you get the chance to enjoy it with the one or ones you love xxx

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Linking up with Zanni from My Little Sunshine House for her Sunday Series and Sonia from Life love and Hiccups for her Weekend Rewind x

38 comments:

  1. We are the same in our house. Have to try to make an effort once a week/fortnight to do something together without the kids. I imagine that is hard when you are living where you do.

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  2. I hope that your valentines day is a wonderful one, with a fabulous meal with your husband, red wine, no broccoli talk at all!! xx

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    1. no broccoli in the meal at all hopefully Amy!!!

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  3. You sound as exhausted as I feel. I hope you have a lovely lovely meal. I truly TRULY understand this post. I do.

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    1. I think it just comes with having young children doesn't it?!!

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  4. Same situation happening up North! Since I co-sleep with my little babe, sometimes she AND I are in bed to stay in bed at 7:30pm. Lingerie - that was never my thing anyway - give me the fleece pants and wool slippers. My husband and I will probably share a chocolate dessert with the little babe before bed.

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    1. At least you're getting plenty of sleep. When do you get time to blog lol?!!

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  5. I think we ALL understand this post! My husband stumbled across an article on predictors of marital happiness. Apparently the best predictors are being married for less than five years and having no children! FAIL on both counts for us! He then was horrified to keep reading that in happy marriages there are five positive comments for each negative ( crikey) and that there is supposed to be five hours a week of conversation ( at this point he stared off into the distance and said he would be struggling to do that monthly (I was thinking quarterly!- he is not a big talker). So, you are not alone, but you are right, we must all try and keep the spark there. Once we were so hopeless and disorganised we spent our wedding anniversary eating McDonalds in a bus depot ! mel x

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    1. All those statistics are a little worrying!!! I had a chuckle at your wedding anniversary at a bus depot, we might not be far off, our wedding anniversary is in 2 weeks time, God knows what we'll do for it up here!!! Options are limited. Though there is a bus stop not far from ours xx

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  6. It's about the same here, right down to the broccoli talk. Happy Valentines Day to you and yours. xx

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  7. I think it's the same for most couples, especially when your children are very young! They drain everything out of you, but it's important to make a little time to spend together. A night in with some nice food and a bottle of red is what we'll be doing tonight. x

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    1. That was exactly how we spent ours also, and it was nice x

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  8. Hi Carla!

    Great post... I totally understand where you are coming from. It is a lot of them same for me and Ryan, though a little less than it used to be. Are oldest, Roman, is 3 1/2 now, and up until, like, four months ago, Ryan and I NEVER made time for each other. At night when the kids were in bed, we too, would just sit on the couch in silence, with the tv on, or each on our own laptop. For a while we attempted "date night" where we would put a blanket/sheepskin on the floor and order takeout and eat together, and sometimes watch a movie and cuddle, and it was fun, but we couldn't keep up with it.

    Time is the hardest thing, when you have kids. There is never enough to do everything you want. Never, never, never. It's sort of like having your own business. You always want to progress, therefor, there is always something you can be doing. Don't you wish there were 48 hours in the day, instead of 24? Ahhhh!!!

    I'm sure that everyone is different, but I've found that only a few times a year can there be that classic "lingerie, candlelit dinner" type of alone time. As my life has changed from having kids, my perception of life has also changed. I have found to have the best life, I'm not a person that takes myself so seriously, or life so seriously, because when you have kids you need to make room for flexibility, and playfulness, and thinking on your toes. This perception has also come into play with Ryan and I's alone time, too. We rarely can have the same kind of alone time that we used to have, which was easy because we had all the time in the world. Our time was only for each other. Now, our time is always on our toes, and all about finding opportune moments, and being spontaneous. Of course.... even that is hard sometimes.

    I guess, in short (and this isn't short, I know, sorry!) I totally understand where you're coming from. Our kids also sleep in bed with us, too, and there is never enough room to lay down comfortably let alone get good sleep, or have morning cuddle and sleep-in time. But I do try to do small things that acknowledge that our relationship is still a big priority to me, like playing footsie under the breakfast table (silly, and pre-teen, ya, but playful and still something!) sitting in his lap as he's reading the paper drinking coffee, or kissing for a couple minutes under that blanket tent that we built with the kids earlier in the day. We had a time where we literally were just like roommates, and we weren't fighting or anything but there was just NO physical contact at all between us, even holding hands, or hugs or anything. Literally, like roommates with kids! It was bad... But it got better. Things always get better. Then they get worse.

    And then better again :)

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    1. Everything you said is so true Amber. Life and relationships are full of different stages. This one won't last forever, and I'm sure I'll miss it once it's passed.
      I often wish for more hours in the day, or alternately, that I could function of little or no sleep!!! Could really attack that to do list quickly while everybody was sleeping
      Thanks for your thoughtful response xx

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  9. Sounds familiar. It is hard to work on your relationship when you have little ones to attend to. I hope you had a lovely meal together and everyone ate their brocolli!

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    1. We had broccoli in our meal, and every bit of it was eaten! Can't say the same for the girls lol x

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  10. I was nodding along whilst reading your post, such a familiar story. I hope you both enjoyed a hot, uninterrupted meal last night x

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    1. We did thank you Lauren. And no interruptions x

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  11. Living in country WA can be tough no matter where you are. It's hard to be away from family and the friends that you did know. I think you are on the right track - you recognise that you need to make a little extra effort sometimes to stay connected. We are the same. Making a point of actually talking and not just staring at the TV for us. Lovely to find your blog on the weekly rewind - especially another country WA blogger.

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    1. Hi Annaleis, lovely to find your blog also. And I love the title of your blog! Look forward to following yours also. I'm new to links like the weekly rewind, but have found it's a great way to find other blogs also. You are the first WA country blogger I've come across. I'm sure there must be more of us!! x

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  12. A lovely post. Thank you for your honesty. Your energy spent on your kids will not be wasted and there will always come time for you both again. Hope you had a lovely dinner :)

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  13. I could have written your post Carla, you speak right from my heart. We've had children for 13 years now! There is still not much couple time but we do manage to go out about twice a year (to the school quiz night usually, with fellow exhausted parents!). We also go on lunch dates sometimes now that the children are all at school. A couple of hours as a couple every now and then is lovely even if it doesn't involve sexy lingerie and candle lit dinners. Don't be too hard on yourself Carla. I hope you enjoyed your broccoli and child free dinner! Cx

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  14. Oh Carla...you have described my life exactly! You are so right - this is just a moment in time. And it's such an important moment. Hats off to those who do romance well despite having small children, but like you, it's not our priority. We have a shared love of TV, and of making life the best we can for our girls. That's strengthening enough! Thanks for linking in for #sunshinesundays. Great post. xx

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    1. I feel the same Zanni, before we know it they won't be interested in us. Romance can take a back seat just for a little while x

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  15. Snap! children and life in general can suck the romance right out of even the most loved up couple in the world. We have had to make a conscious effort to spend more time together without distractions and a once a month date night is now on the agenda. Hope you enjoyed that dinner Carla - you guys deserved it xx

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  16. Yes. Yes. Yes. I think this is the same for us too, though slowly improving as the kids age. Nice to find your blog via Sunshine Sundays. Love your blog header!

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  17. I think much the same about Valentine's Day. It's nice to have a day to remind us how much we love our partner and how much we are loved. Life does get busy, especially when you throw small children in the mix and it's nice to slow down and appreciate each other.

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  18. Carla, I hear you. We are currently FIFOing it from Tassie and have 4 kids under 7 including a 5 month old. We are looking at our options and it would be lovely to have hubby home every night but I do also love having that block of quality time when he's home.

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    1. Oh wow Cat, we're both actually from Tasmania. You do an amazing job FIFO from Tasmania. We did FIFO from Perth as a couple for 8-9 years. This is our first time living together as a family full-time! x

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  19. Your life and description of dinner time sounds like where I am at also. We also do not do Valentines much. bUt you are right it is definitely great to mark the day with a simple card or even a hug. Hope things improve for you soon.

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  20. Now the trick will be to pretend its valentine's day AT LEAST one nights week! At our place the tv is off all weekend - it helps. Enjoy finding the romance again! It's so important. x

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    1. I'm not sure I could convince my husband to do that!! But I can see that removing distractions would definitely force you to make more of an effort of an evening xx

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